Malicious, misleading information about Prem Rawat (Maharaji) and Knowledge is being published on the internet by a small but vocal hate group known as "ex-premies." In this web site I explain the real motivation behind their activities; I debunk their propaganda, and I provide links to other web sites where accurate, up-to-date information can be obtained. This web site is an entirely private venture. I do not represent Prem Rawat in any official or unofficial capacity and I am not associated with any of the organizations which support his work.

The opinions expressed in this web site are based on ducumented evidence and observable facts.

Page contents:

1. Apostates: What drives their obsession? Various academics offer opinions.

2. Analysis

3. The 'Latvia Night'

4. So, why did they stop practicing?

5. Miscellaneous

In Brief: There is a core Hate Group of about 15 so called 'ex-premies.' Since 1997, about an additional140 people worldwide have submitted their 'journey' to the group's main web site and apparently approve of the group's harassing activities. Several people who were formerly involved with the core group have left and others have asked to have their 'journey' removed from the epo web site. The group has been greatly weakened by internal division and defections in recent years.

1. Apostates: What drives their obsession? Academics' opinions.

Bryan R. Wilson, who was a professor of Sociology at Oxford University, writes that apostates of new religious movements are generally in need of self-justification, seeking to reconstruct their own past and to excuse their former affiliations, while blaming those who were formerly their closest associates. Wilson utilizes the term "atrocity story" that is in his view [a story] rehearsed by the apostate to explain how, by manipulation, coercion or deceit, he was recruited to the group that he now condemns.
Wilson also challenges the reliability of the apostate's testimony by saying that, "The apostate [can] always be seen as one whose personal history predisposes him to bias with respect to his previous religious commitment and affiliations. The suspicion must arise that he acts from a personal motivation to vindicate himself and to regain his self-esteem by showing himself to have been first a victim, but subsequently a redeemed crusader."

Gordon Melton, while testifying as an expert witness in a lawsuit, said that when investigating groups, one should not rely solely upon the unverified testimony of ex-members, and that hostile ex-members would invariably shade the truth and blow out of proportion minor incidents, turning them into major incidents. Melton also follows the argumentation of Lewis Carter and David Bromley and claims that as a result of this study, the (psychological) treatment (coerced or voluntary) of former members largely ceased, and that this (perceived) lack of widespread need for psychological help by former members of new religions would in itself be the strongest evidence refuting early sweeping condemnations of new religions as causes of psychological trauma.

Stuart A. Wright explores the distinction between the apostate narrative and the role of the apostate, asserting that the former follows a predictable pattern in which the apostate utilizes a "captivity narrative" that emphasizes manipulation, entrapment and being victims of "sinister cult practices". These narratives provide a rationale for a "hostage-rescue" motif, in which cults are likened to POW camps, and deprogramming [is seen as] a heroic rescue effort. He also makes a distinction between "leavetakers" and "apostates", asserting that despite the popular literature and lurid media accounts of "rescued or recovering 'ex-cultists'", empirical studies of defectors from new religious movements "generally indicate favorable, sympathetic, or at the very least mixed responses toward their former group."

2. Analysis: J M Kahn, a French member of the group writes,

"What I now think is that I got into all this to avoid facing some difficulties, and to escape some problems that were bothering me deeply."

Big mistake! This is Prem Rawat's answer:

"Knowledge cannot help your problems. You have to work with your problems and deal with them. They are going to come and they are going to go. But Knowledge is something very specific. Knowledge allows you to have an experience of what is already inside of you. No more and no less. It will not make any changes in your life. You have to do that." (Versailles, France 1992)

Knowledge will not cure your problems and it will not help you to avoid facing them. Kahn admits:

"Being at the end of my journey was really what I felt so many times. Being at the place I really wanted to reach, inside of me and in this world, feeling so well, so elevated, so high, filled with so much love. I really thought it was the best that I would ever get to feel in this life. And maybe it still is."

Kahn and others like him have chosen to abandon this. But for a person who has experienced the inner dimension of Knowledge, to abandon it must create an enormous problem. What mechanism could you use to pretend that it didn't happen or that it wasn't real?

The simple fact is, they love to hate, and they seem to derive some kind of perverse satisfaction from their self-induced, angst-driven catharsis. As part of this process, hate group members spend thousands of hours criticizing the person who gave them the gift. But no matter how much they criticize and defame Prem Rawat, there will always be something within them that knows that the dimension they once discovered within themselves is real.

3. The Latvia Night

If you don't think ex-premies are obsessed with Knowledge, check this out.

Core members of the ex-premie Hate Group gathered in a U.K. bar for a mock "Knowledge Review." They called their meeting a Latvia Night. EPO webmaster, John Brauns (far right and 2nd photo from the left), emigrated to Latvia soon after, reportedly leaving a trail of bad debts after the collapse of his beer importing business.

4. So, why did they stop practicing?

1. In the early days, some people asked for Knowledge for the wrong reasons. Practicing Knowledge will not magically solve your problems. Blaming others for your own failure is quite common in Western culture. Some people have found it convenient to blame Prem Rawat because practicing Knowledge did not make their personal problems disappear. Kahn's statement (above) is a good example.

Some of those who submitted stories to EPO's website had been suffering mental illness or seem to have been psychologically unstable before asking for Knowledge. Mental illness can be extremely debilitating and the practice of Knowledge will not cure it. David Stirling wrote:

"For a week or two I forgot about the Knowledge but my mental problem was getting worse. I beleived everyone else could hear my thoughts - it was making my life miserable and work impossible. My psychiatrist really couldn't offer anything more than mind-numbing pills so I tried using the meditation techniques*." (*The techniques of Knowledge.)

This sad account is a recipe for failure. Stirling, a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic, was at one time a member of the inner circle of ex-premies.

Preparation is essential before asking for Knowledge. We need time to have our questions answered and to decide whether or not this is something we really want to persue.

2. Over the years, Maharaji has changed and developed the organisations which support his work according to the needs of the times so that he could reach a wider cross section of society. This was particularly the case in the 1980s. A small number of people were not able to accept change at that time.

I was one of many people who helped with various projects in the late 1970s, early 1980s. When these projects reached their conclusion, I applied what I had learned and established my own business. Later, I completed a university degree. Others around the world benefited in more or less the same way. However, I think that a few were not able to make the transition, and looked for somewhere to shift the blame.

3. In the early days it was not uncommon for people with Knowledge to try to describe their experience to others. In my opinion, this was a mistake. And it is a mistake to look for the experience that someone else has described and not accept and discover your own unique, individual inner experience. For some exes, this may have been a contributing factor.

The experience of practicing Knowledge is personal and private in nature. It does not depend on any kind of group process or hype. For me, the most wonderful times have always been totally unexpected and surprising. I could never adequately describe these experiences to anyone. My experience and the quality of life that I derive is for me alone.

4. Some people have been duped into believing hate group propaganda. I'm not sure why. Perhaps they are susceptible to negativity.

Recently, two friends have suggested an alternative view:

A few "disgruntled" people were looking for an excuse to "move back." i.e. Move back to domination by something which "chatters away aimlessly most of the time" and is quite capable of "rationalizing war, suicide, environmental destruction or any other type of destructive behavior."


4. Miscellaneous material

How do you know?

Q: How do you know you're in a cult?

A: When two of your most revered spokespeople are convicted by free and democratic legal systems of serious crimes but you make lame excuses for them. (Ackland)

Q: How do you know you're a part of a hate group?

A: When the group make unprovoked attacks on the children of the person they hate and you don't object. (Prem Rawat's children)

Q: How do you know you're a racist?

A: When you criticise and make fun of a part of another person's culture which is a freely given expression of love and respect.

Q: How do you know you've lost the plot?

A: When you know you can answer 'yes' to any of above questions but you don't care.

by M Barrister, March 2004

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